i am ![SARA]!.

i am an addict.

the level of my stress, heartache, confusion, frustration and or basic unhappy moments are directly proportional to my habit. when lost, bored, anxious, i turn to it, it makes the brain stop, it gets me lost inside something where all the real worries are forgotten, if only for a moment.

i am an addict.

it has not yet reached intervention levels, but i have felt that line, that edge, i have seen the edge of the dark pit and retreated.

i have played for years, but for whatever reason, i discovered this tonight. i have been tracked, my scores, my minutes played. the metadata of my addiction. sometimes, when i step back to admire my achievements in this world, i have taken a screen shot of my name, ![SARA]!, at the top of all the score boards, this cannot begin to describe the depth of the problem to the level this new meta can. i love meta, LOVE meta. always recording, unblinking and nonjudgmental information is my new friend.

11/22/07 - 3/30/08 (as of 1:45 am):

3442 minutes played = 57.37 hours.

4253 accumulative score = 129th place of 13,142 players = top 0.98%.

i am officially worried about myself.

if you are, the banner below is my live status, keep an eye on me 24/7.